Reasons why - I am au-pairing. In rural Nw Spain. Oh yes I am.

Because you have new boots and a broken heart, because that last big heist didn't go quite to plan, because you accidentally unleashed the forces of darkness, because you can see for miles up here, because you can hear echoes and want to gain perspective, because you want to know just how loudly you can sing, because you want to do a pirouette standing on top of a large sticking up stone on top of a mountain, because you can go days without seeing anybody, because you need to keep moving forward, because the hound of the Baskervilles is on your tail and you sure ain't no Sherlock Holmes, because your boots are dark green and flat and leather and you can wear them with a long warm dress that fits in all the right places and pretend you're a Toast model, because you've spent too many days hiding under the sofa craving toast, because your liver can't handle anything else, because you have new jeans that need wearing in, because you can, because running for the hills has become a default position, because for the first time in a long time you can do this without feeling bad about the people you've left behind, because you've lost your eyeliner, because you think you've lost all your confidence, because you hear fresh air is good for mending weeping wounds, because you can feel yourself closing back up again, because you want to run until your lungs burn and your cheeks turn pink, because someone once told you that in their dreams sheep are heroes, because you want to stop and stare and leave the habitual asking questions part of you at the bottom of the hill for later, because you're damned if you're going to go back there again, because you'll never come back here after this one last time, because pirates have big swords and sharp parrots, because just for a little while you want to be transparent or opaque, either one will do, but you want to stop living as a reflection.

We must all still work these things out for ourselves.